Fear. Hope. Sadness. Joy. Loss. Life. I feel like I don't have a right to feel the way I do. We lost our baby last July. No one knows what to say to that. I know I didn't. Heck, I still don't. Some people tried to be sensitive, but usually ended up prying too much and bringing it up when I didn't want them to. Most people mumbled an "I'm sorry," and continued as if nothing had happened. In a culture where abortion is normalized, it sometimes feels like first term miscarriages aren't considered a real tragedy. But they are. Our baby died. After a lot of crying, I started pretending like it didn't happen. I was really good at that. Too good. 6 months later, I was sound asleep and I heard a baby cry so clearly that my eyes popped open! I took a pregnancy test first thing in the morning and it was positive! Then came the fear . I was afraid to be intimate with my husband. I held my breath every time I had to use th
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